The Torment of Parents who Lose a Child to Vaccination (1754) (Reverend Theodore Delafaye)

Throughout the history of vaccination, countless parents have experienced, to their horror, the death of their child to this unnecessary, worthless, dangerous, and evil procedure.

These are, of course, those who actually discern that vaccination was the cause of death. Some do not. But those who do discern such do not only have to deal with tragic loss of their child. Unless their child was vaccinated against their will, they also have to deal with the torment of conscience that comes with the fact that the reason their child is dead is because of their role in submitting him to this procedure.

Such remorse can easily plague parents for their entire life. And such remorse is extremely heightened when they were warned ahead of time about the dangers of vaccination — and yet chose to ignore it and trust the vaccine propagandists.

Yet such parents are not without hope. If they trust in Jesus Christ as their savior, they have forgiveness through His blood. So such agony of conscience can in fact be dealt with. But the loss of the child is, nevertheless, tragic.

Rev. Theodore Delafaye on the torment of losing a child to inoculation

During the 1700s, the process of smallpox variolation was practiced. Technically, variolation is the forerunner to vaccination, but in essence it is the beginning of vaccination; vaccination in all but name (both procedures can be referred to as inoculation). In the name of curing disease, both procedures insert poisons into the bloodstream — resulting in, contrary to the popular narrative, disease and death.

One of the great opponents of this wicked procedure was the Reverend Theodore Delafaye of Canterbury, an Anglican clergyman. In 1753, he preached a sermon against inoculation, where one of the points was that it was doing evil that good may come.

In 1754, he published “A Vindication of a Sermon, entitled, Inoculation an Indefensible Practice“. The portion below discusses the anguish of conscience parents suffer when their child dies after they chose to submit them to smallpox variolation.

Since vaccination is practically the same as variolation, what is said here can apply likewise to parents who lose their children to vaccination today. Hopefully, by sharing this, Delafaye’s comments will help convict parents to refrain from vaccination so that they will never have to endure such loss and mental anguish.

Note: Delafaye’s writing can at times be hard to understand, but by reading the broader context, one gets the overall gist of what he is saying.

From “A Vindication of a Sermon, entitled, Inoculation an Indefensible Practice”:

To convince ourselves of it, let us consider the same interesting circumstances of a father lamenting for a child lost in the unnatural way of inoculation:

Attentive as we suppose him to have been to the important talk of his child’s education, will he not be tormented with the sharp sting of self-condemnation, for having deprived him of that chance of life which nature under such circumstances proffer’d, and which he had abundant reason to confide in ; as what prudence suggested, and experience confirm’d? Will he not besides reflect with anguish on his causeless partiality in submitting his darling to an experiment, in which his reason, had he consulted it, wou’d clearly have inform’d him, there cou’d be no chance of life, if there was none in the way, he was in? Will he not find his agonies render’d extremely more piercing still, when his conscience shall with terror convince him, that he absolutely has brought on and hasten’d the death of his child, beyond what the God of nature intended, and perhaps in a way which never was to affect or injure him? Will he not likewise be distracted with horror at the thought of the high injustice, and foulest tyranny he has heen guilty of, in hazarding and bringing to an end the life of one, whom, as being his own flesh, he ought to have proved tenderest to ; and over whom no law whatever invests him with a right of absolute disposal? Will it not give a still keener edge to these deep cutting reflections, to feel it proved by his own innate powers, that contrary to the establish’d law and distinguishing privilege of his nature, he has neither been careful to exercise his rational faculties on this important occasion, nor made his resolves upon mature and impartial deliberation? Will it not further help to heighten the doleful distraction of his soul, to consider the amazing arrogance, with which he has rejected the care of heaven; the inexcusable presumption, with which he has so dared to arraign the glorious perfections of the Almighty ; and the unintelligible perverseness, with which he has ventured to counteract the well-known laws and commands of his dread Judge? In fine, press’d by all this weight of reason to admit his anguish and vexation abundantly merited ; and that he did not deserve future comfort from a Being, he had not scrupled, so unnecessarily, so irrationally, so wantonly, to expose to most imminent danger ? Will not every day’s sight of the salutary tendency of a regular and virtuous education towards the security of life, under every disease, and the loathed one among others, continually bring to remembrance, and aggravate these distracting thoughts; and so render his present condition not only the most miserable, but the prospect of futurity the most dreadful human mind can conceive? If our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things.

In truth, scarce is it possible to consider these affecting circumstances attentively, without being led to represent to one’s self the disconsolate parent bemoaning his loss in this, or such like sad soliloquy. Ah! Wretch, that I am, what have I done ! Whither shall I go to ease the tortures of my distracted breast! —Why did I leave the paths of nature! Why contemn the God, that plann’d them! —What means the establish’d empire of my reason! What view induc’d me barely to betray it! — Had I no thought! Was I bereav’d of sense! or did an universal lethargy o’erspread my powers! – Was will ungovern’d made to rule man’s life! Can wanton pride deserve to meet with favour! – How cou’dst thou, my heart, resign thy influence! How camest thou not to shrink, when danger lay before thee! — Tell it not in Gath ; publish it not in Askelon ; that one, who bore the name of father ; one, form’d by nature for tenderness and love ; e’er cou’d suppress this softest plea ; or e’er become to his own flesh a foe! — Yes, the Lord gave ; but the Lord has not taken away! ‘Tis wretched I, that have ; and now see plain the foul, the bloody deed! — Forgive, thou puret[?] shade! Forgive the wrong, and plead thy father’s cause! — Say : Oh say! — But what invades my sight? What haunts my spirit ! — The ghostly image of my once lovely babe! — Oh horror! Oh despair! — What will not man attempt! What evils does he cause! — Curs’d be the day, that robb’d thee of thy life! And curs’d the hour, that brought forth this invention! — A deadly poison has it proved! A deadly poison does it prove to my poor tenter’d soul! – Oh! where shall I meet with what may still my anguish! – Whilst Heaven frowns an angry look ; whilst all that is within me, joins to prove me guilty ; I must not think of ease! — My portion is compunction! A gnawing worm! Sighs without allay! Tears for ever flowing! — I am weary of my moan! My heart grows faint! My spirits sink! Thrice happy, might I die!

Such being a true state of the case ; such the tormenting uneasiness and self-condemnation, which must and have been observed to attend parents, under the unfortunate circumstance, we have been so largely considering, it shou’d seem, no one, that had a sense of happiness, or a desire of enjoying it, cou’d ever become a friend to inoculation ; when it is so manifest, that it cannot be submitted to, without putting this most invaluable treasure of our lives to the most imminent hazard. And if it be consider’d, that all this energy of woe takes place most certainly, even where the parent is supposed to have done his duty in respect to his child’s education ; it is easily understood, with what additional force, his self judgments must affect him, where it may be proved, he has been negligent in this important task, and so perhaps has occasion’d his child’s contraćting a very bad, a dangerous habit both of mind and body.

But there is no need to swell the account. It contains already more than enough to stagger the strongest reason ; more than enough to shake the soundest piety. I shall therefore leave it there, without any further use of it, than to introduce this very easy and natural inference ; that since from what has been advanced and demonstrated, under this last Section of our defence, inoculation appears beyond all dispute to expose those that submit to it, to many bodily, and to very sore mental evils ; it cannot but be own’d a practice as pernicious, as any human presumption ever devis’d, or the world ever was infested with.

Theodore Delafaye, “A Vindication of a Sermon, entitled, Inoculation an Indefensible Practice” (London: S. and E. Ballard, 1754), 185-189. Read and download here.

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